50 years old cornea

with jay chou's song playing at the background, its hard to not emo.
haha.kidding kidding.
emo for what? you will get wrinkles, your cells will start aging, your mind will start thinking nonsence and all the 'what if's..', 'if only...' ,you will start missing those great things that are happening to you right now.family, friends, youth, school holidays..(and none of these last forever!!!)

i know its hard. its hard to get into ones mind or to change one's thinking and priorities. but get things straight girl.really.its not the end of the world.you are not like how you used to be which made many look up to you.

ah..now's 'someday, when we are wiser.....'

so what have I been doing? resting.reading books.helping that poor young boy with his maths.helping cousin with her business.facebooking.gyming.hanging out with highschool friends a lot!! not much college. hmm.....
its like i dont remember much what happen during that 2 years in sg.its like i have been on an island where time flies like nobody's business and by the time i am back again to Malaysia for long like now, lots of things change.i know i haven been keeping in touch with many people.*regrets*some people just seemed foreign to me.i just dont remember what we talked last time, what we did.

and i went back taman sea.it has been 4 years and i didnt ooh and ahh like what vanne did.its only her first year away from that place.but after awhile, haha, i sort of got influenced by her.passed by backgate, i saw our old 3 orkid where i used to sit by window and looking out to block B for 'chickenwing'.=)
then when we stood outside office, there were the chinese society classroom, badminton court.
pn.chung remembered me.i mean she was like 'i know you. you were the monitor of 5K' .haha.
then mr. mail,' you look familiar. do i know you?' haha.he onced,' i thought the monitor is suppose to keep quiet, now she's the one making all the noise.'and i remembered clearly that at that time i was explaining 'crossing road' and 'taking the bridge' to caroline.saw the canteen too.the scout den.and our old 5k classroom! the 'tong hua' lyrics that yeanchan (sean) used to wrote on the ceiling was gone. how sad..

the main thing.i went for an eye check. power's quite low though not as perfect as gervanne's but my cornea is 50-60 years old!!! omg.no wonder my eyes always felt tired. its either due to the lack of oxygen, or spend long hours in front of the computer!! grrrr...........
my once beautiful eyes are getting smaller.*depressed*

i should probably sleep.

anyi
'because i'm a girl'

up is where we go from here

random photos.
james..
job: door keeper, phone operator, entertainer
like: food and music
fear: rambutan

dont ever order this. we have no right to kill sharks...

blissful drink

halfway to heaven

part time magic cleaner

i used to make my own aiskacang at home..

none mushroom coursemate!

4 kembojians.*cough*


ay
truth hurts, lies worse

3-4 more weeks

i have only 4 more weeks left and i am feeling all depressed. =(
*drama queen*
i still dislike sg life.really.the unhealthy competitiveness and those less-than-friendly or carefree people
even if there's carefree people...nvm

it seems like the older you get, the more '8 years ago...', '5 years ago..' you can talk about.
and the older you get, the more worries u get.maybe its just me,myself and I. its like you just kept looking forward, achieving things, dreaming big and you forgot all those lil things that used to make your day.those heros in novels, history, inspiring movies, stupid entertaining variety shows...*babbling* i really dont know why.hopefully i will wake up on the right side of the bed tomoro morn.

prob...i just dont know how one day i was just so pissed off and disappointed bout how ignorant someone is when i was down and the next day being so enthu and happy that somehow affects me. i dont wan to be so easily influenced.grr...stop using people la!

.. someone just called me the most negative person. = haha.

ay

nightmare

seemed to have forgotten the secret.and i am just too tired to even think.
its like this is not the real world. a dream. a nightmare.
despite those screaming and running around just now, stoned.
cant turn back, cant go back to last time.i just cant.i dont even remember how its like. those blissful days..
i dont like what i see.i dont share.and i really dont think i wanna try, since what went out came back as something else. monster...

ay
dreading the days.

therapy

am back!! from ipoh and penang. its great its great its ...not bad!
haha.with grace's 2 kuantan friend(payying and yeemei) whom i have never met before, grace, quen, siewloong and weiting in ipoh, kiat, yan, ws, py and ym's uni mates selina and the bf..
its truly a random trip.
hahaha.
*high on lack of sleep*
i had my laksa and ice kacang, prawn mee, kuayteow, pancake, chendol, grill fish, seafood, satay, chempedak,toast,lots of carrot juice, bowling,karaoke,shisha,jetski,bananaboat,movies,pillowtalk and all those stupid games we play before going to bed.hahah.looking back, how sad....that no one's fighting for bed with me tonight.
*merajuk like a small kid*
truly a getaway vacation.hehe.even though there were times where many things cropped up, visits of the past haunting that tired mind of mine....lets sing them awayyyyyyyyy

pictures up sooonnn....

anyi
i wan my freaking 2 core subjects!!!!

TGIF

i wonder how cotton bud is made, like cotton candy?

anyi
i wanna see the 4 letter word.......SALE!!

the number of times you broke ones heart is the number of time you will get ur heart broken

i wish its stronger.i wish its huge enough to change everything.

~tell me why you're so hard to forget~
david

ay
i wish u could sing like 范逸臣